Day 6

It's the sixth day of our Novena for Lily and while there are many, many thoughts and emotions swirling through my mind and heart right now, there is one feeling that has overwhelmed me...

Peace.

Never, in a million years, or even 20 weeks ago would I believe you if you told me in the days leading up to my daughter's birth and most likely, her passing, I would feel such a strong sense of peace.

I know with all of my heart it is from all of your heartfelt prayers. 

Thank you. Thank you. Thank you. 

There are moments it still doesn't feel real or even possible that we could say our hellos and goodbyes in the same breath. 

Yesterday, Lily woke me up at 4:00am dancing away like she always does. But this time, she didn't stop and I couldn't go back to sleep. She danced, and kicked and flipped and my stomach was bouncing around like a bag of popcorn.

It's unimaginable that she won't be that strong when she's born. 

So our prayers continue and we continue to ask for peace as we prepare to meet our precious Lily and for all the days after. 

We pray that we can be fully present in the joy of her birth because she truly is a gift.

She is our gift.

And my sweet Ted...he seems to know just what I need right now too. ;-)

39 weeks with my dancing girl