I am always looking forward, thinking of what's next. That might not seem too bad. Some people never look forward, never look ahead.
I do it constantly. To the point where I don't feel present in the moment. I miss being thankful for right now.
Maybe it's because I was a teacher. Teachers make plans on Monday for what they want Friday to look like. They make plans in August for what they want December to look like.
Maybe it's being a homeowner and always looking at what needs to be done next. Right after we were married we had our family over for lunch and everyone was gushing over our house. All we could see were the things that needed to be done, we couldn't see in the moment we had (have) a great house.
I don't know why I do it, but I feel like it's become a problem. Waiting for what's next instead of being thankful for today.
I have a beautiful 5 month old son and I find myself constantly thinking of when we will have our next child. That's crazy right?! I mean he's only 5 months old! He's only slept through the night for a couple of weeks, yet I am thinking/worrying about when we will have another child. It consumes me.
Ted is a great napper. So great that he doesn't really let me rock him before bed or naps. Maybe that's why I am thinking about another baby already. ;-)
But today...this little guy didn't feel like napping in his crib. He wasn't sick, wasn't wet, wasn't hungry...he just wanted his mama.
I am so thankful for today because there might be a lot of tomorrows where he won't do this.